I just started this & ran out of time I will come back & finish it shortly

Once Autism comes into your life, it gets lonely even when you are married. I do think about what it would be like, but my marriage to Mickie dad was so crappy, that I can't imagine being married again.

When I first got divorced I was still open to start over, but as time went by, it became evident that I couldn't bring another person into my life and still keep up with what Mickie needed.

The way I look at it. If Mickie's dad couldn't be there for him, how will another man be able to be there for him. For people who found that special someone-good for them, but we live in a very selfish world and things are aways nice at the beginning, but I know that over time, Mickie would just be in that person's way.

No one will love him as much as I do. Trying to recover him is more important then remarrying.

I get lonely and mourn the loss of having someone to share my thoughts and feelings with....having someone to identify with. I get frustrated that none of my ASD community friends are single or work....but when it come down to it I wouldn't change a thing!

Yes, that is it that is what I do & what happens to me. Hey, I'm not parenting this Saturday ;) jj. Really, that is how I am too

when I feel the loneliest... During the day, I can "busy" myself into unawareness of my single-dom. It's after I've gotten everyone down to bed, animals all fed, and most of the chores done for the night that it hits me the worst. The time when, if I were part of a couple, I'd normally find myself either sharing some adult conversation without the words "Thomas/train," or like LivsDad said "someone to banter with, someone to help"...or just sharing space with someone that understands my silences.

Well, I guess I can't go back & edit this so I will leave this comment. I just wanted to write about how the prospect of finding a spouse, sig other, gal friend seems to be unrealistic. And, sometimes I really get lonely. I have lots of friends & some really friends that are gals. But, that just is not the same. I wish I had somebody to hold me on a poopy day, somebody to hold hands with when taking a walk, somebody to banter with, & somebody to help.

I know what you mean.. I am not the type of person that has to always be with somebody & does not mind being alone. However, a lot of the time I wish I had somebody to share & be with. I don't have much time, priority, or much left to give somebody else so I stopped dating soon after Liv's dx. I wonder who would take me seriously even if I did date as I feel like I have more baggage than the Denver airport during a blizzard. Not that I would consider Liv baggage. But, I am sure others would.

I get lonely too. Sometimes I just can't bare it but it always seems to pass. When Chad is sleeping I will still go in and look at him and miss the little boy that could have been. I know I can never remarry again. Not that I want to but I know that it's not going to happen. Once in a while I just cry all day and night then I shake it off and just thank God for the special child he did give me and try not to question why or what if.. but ya I get lonely too..